Nothing is bliss

Haha look at me I am nobody
I sleep where I lie
I believe nothing is set in concrete
You’ll find that I am quite shy
I think of much deeper thoughts
That I’ll never speak
Life is profound, imagination, ideologies
I lack luster, taste and apathy
Most days I see, I hear and I feel
With the eyes, ears and heart of another
Confusing not knowing which emotions belong to me
Spirituality? No, psychology
I do not worry about an empty sky
No god above no devil below
Do not pity me because I cannot see the false reality
Or this love in my heart
No hate for the enemy
Your feelings towards my lifestyle show your handicap-never mind
It’s just as invisible as my minds interpretation of your moral interactions
This is meaningless
Yet we keep on, we persist
Form that line, find your place to stand
Read the signs
Your brain must be this small to fit in
In the world today who needs common sense?
What do I know? Do not follow my lead
Read above I am nobody
Because when I am nothing I feel bliss

Burnt away

Further and further I seem to drift away

Inside I feel myself grow cold tired and old

I stand before one bare and exposed 

Standing like that which came before me

Plain, white against the dark of night 

I’ve struggled to hold onto what once thrived inside of me 

Blazing higher brighter than light from the fire

It wasn’t smothered away 

I let go a little at a time 

As the fire burned away 

I did nothing but watch embers fade

So all I ask is for you to spare yourself please

I’ve tried and tried to explain

Emptiness still resides

This emptiness consumes me but that is my way

You can not save me with words and gestures

Genuine affection as soft as the rain

I beg you save yourself from me

There is no cure for me 

After all because of the rain 

I cannot relight the flame

How much longer?

Sit and watch as the clock ticks time away

How long can I listen until it drives me insane?

How will I know when my time is up?

All of my best laying in waste

As time moves on without me

This much I can see

It will never stop and wait on me

When this realization strikes in my head

I ran to catch up with those ever moving hands

Running and chasing I can’t seem to get ahead in this race

Am I really running to beat the clock?

Time? The tick tock of the clock?

Time is something I will never catch

For the clock is cunning and sly like the fox

No matter what pace I dare to keep

Time is relentless it has never taken a break

That clock will always be ticking one second ahead of me

I will have to train and learn to keep its pace

That will be a greatness no one will ever defeat

When you call for me

 

When you call for me

I need to you know

Everything is different now

The cause all my own

When you call for me

I will not answer

Your voice once as beautiful as the falling snow

It stays in my head

It becomes bitter and cold

When you call for me

I ask that you know

You no longer hold the feeling

Of a cool breeze on a hot summer day

Like the mark of a sunburn on my skin exposed

You just bring me pain

When you call for me

I want you to look to the sky

Do you see that bird flying so high?

She is on a path somewhere you cannot go

I need you to stop and imagine

That bird is me soaring away from you

When you call for me

Look straight ahead

You see the beautiful oak tree?

I am no longer sitting underneath those leafs

Writing poetry or dreaming of thee

When you call for me

I will never know

This love has been disconnected

This is the last time I answer that phone

When you call for me

I hope you remember these words

I hope they chill you to the bone

No, it’s your time to feel the unknown

Your Golden Crown

 

She took my hand

And tried to make me understand

She kissed my lips

And left me in bliss

Now I don’t know what to do

How I’d ever live without you

I need you here

Not only in my heart

I miss your voice

I miss your touch

Why would you say you loved me so

When you would never spend time with me

Not even to go out to lunch

You took my hand

You slid on a ring

Why?

What should I do?

Why should I have time for you?

When you have none for me

You live on the other side of town

Where you were that golden crown

Your words can only go so far

While I sit around and wait